#what do you mean ill find myself on Tumblr making gifs... into my 30s... instead of making a few crores every year

[indiangp]

everytime I see someone older on here running a blog mainly about some celeb who's almost the same age as them I feel so crazy....

[poipoi1912]

What does it take to be acknowledged by you, mentioned by you, followed by you, tagged by you (just once)? (This is an honest question. Come on, you're a lawyer, all about rational answers and blunt facts. I'd really like to know, so I can see what I could improve on.) - Sincerely, NotInterestingEnoughIGuess

I am a lawyer, so I don’t know about these “facts” you speak of, but here’s an unnecessarily detailed and long-winded answer which may or may not make sense :D (that’s what lawyers do lol)

What it takes to be acknowledged by me: Send me an ask :D But I imagine you mean getting a like or a reblog? You’d need to post a cute gifset of Sonny or Barba, or something about Barisi, or some thoughts about SVU (ranging from the hilarious to the serious). Caveat: I’d also need to be on tumblr to see your post, which is kind of a crapshoot these days. Sometimes I can't muster up the energy to scroll through my dash (or to get online at all), so I just go outside (walking always helps me) or I listen to music or I write. I'm here when I can, I see what I see, and I like or reblog whatever I happen to see that day.

What it takes to be followed by me: Blunt facts? At this point, you’d need to be a Deckerstar blog. I do adore and appreciate my SVU mutuals (half of whom don’t even post about SVU anymore, lol), because they keep me informed, but these days I mostly rely on the tags to find SVU content (i.e. cute pictures of Sonny/Peter). In my view, SVU has been declining in quality, and it’s not much fun anymore, so I don’t feel like seeing it on my dash any more than I already do (omg harsh) (but true). (except for terrible-slash-hilarious pics of Peter making weird faces or wearing denim-on-denim-on-denim. Do you post that? @ me! I’ll follow you asap.)

Seriously though, I'm very happy to see that there are quite a few new Sonny blogs around and I’m pretty sure I’ve reblogged something from all of them (who are you, anon, lol?). omg disclaimer, if you’re a Barba blog I probably won’t follow you! Most of my mutuals may not love SVU anymore but they sure love Barba, because they have good taste, so my dash is like 30% Raul on any given day, which is how I like it :D. Basically, my dash right how has all the SVU content I need (i.e. “a small amount” lol). All the “new” blogs I’ve followed, say, in the last 6-ish months, are either about Lucifer/Deckerstar or about writing prompts. Because I want to enjoy my dash. So, if you want me to follow you, I’d suggest getting into Lucifer. You’ll thank me later :)

What it takes to be tagged by me:Honestly, prior interactions. I don’t tag people all that often, but when I do it’s because I appreciate their humor or their thoughts. Or when I want to thank them for posting something, or when I want to comment on one of their posts, etc. I’m not the most interactive blog, lol. I keep to myself most of the time, unless someone tags me first. My main interactions with you all are usually though asks (which I try to respond to in a sort-of timely manner, but which sometimes get away from me). So if you’d like to know what I think about something specific, about one of your theories or ideas, shoot me an ask.

Now, I’ve made several posts about my current life situation (death and illness and pain), and unfortunately I don’t have enough time to be on tumblr and participate in the fandom as much as I would like (or as much as I did last year, before my situation got even worse). That’s just not a priority for me, not out of choice but out of necessity. Fandom is a lovely distraction, and I value all of you (and your humor and your creativity and your kindness), and on some days a tumblr post will be the only reason I smile, but my main focus is on my family and real life obligations. I miss out on a lot of the fun, but there’s not much I can do. I don’t even have time to read fic anymore. I have to “schedule” my tumblr time.

That said, when I am here, I do still check the tags, and I love seeing what people thought about an episode (lol), and I love writing down my own episode thoughts, and reading people’s reactions, and saving Sonny and Barba and Dodds Sr. gifs. And I also adore to speculate on spoilers, and discuss the characters. Most of that happens through your asks, actually, which is why I enjoy it so much. It’s my favorite way to interact with you all. Problem is, that can only happen when the show gives us something to work with. And they haven’t been doin’ that lately 👀

Bottom line, I feel that my main contribution to this fandom is my fic, and I focus my energy on that, sometimes, instead of participating more. I do feel bad about that, and I do think it’s a little selfish of me, because on occasion I like to use fic to work through some of my own issues (with grief or apathy or loss). Meanwhile, I might go “off the grid” and “ignore” you all (read: I might go for weeks without checking tumblr at all, either because I'm having a tough time and I can't be my usual peppy self :D, or because I'm too busy to breathe). Then again, that’s kind of the point of writing, isn’t it? Isolating yourself a little, and creating something? :)

Writing helps me mentally and psychologically, especially now. And, to be blunt, tumblr doesn’t always help with that, as I’m sure most of us know :D (how can I focus on writing when Raul is out there wearing fabulous suits and glasses? GLASSES? like, gimme a break, guy!)

tl;dr

What you can do to improve your blog, anon, as well as your entire life, is to start watching Lucifer (which comes back THIS MONDAY OMGGGGGG). Make a Chloe Decker-exclusive blog and I will follow you immediately. (I will also follow Veep blogs, for the record. Are there any Richard T. Splett blogs out there??).

Another thing which would improve your life, and mine, would be if we both stopped watching SVU, but I suspect we’re in too deep :D

[s3venpounds]

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YA CHEEKY LITTLE CUNT love you tho because its always fun to do these asks even though everyone who reads will probs forget all these details in like the span of a week.

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

wanna go again?

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?

nothing anymore

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

depends on what drugs, the severity of the side effects, the cost of said drugs, and how addicted they are to it. like if its weed sure go ahead long as it isn’t around me not a big fan of the smell. crystal meth however i would probably be turned off or just attempt to get them off it. over the counter drugs though is fine too.

4. Is your last name longer than six letters? yep

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober? sober

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up? AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA yes. horribly messed up. still think about it tbh

7. What does your last received text say? “ well i think you can just wax with whatever length but it wont be able to cling to your hair well”

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed? lost count too busy being happy at the time

9. Where was your last kiss at? a bus stop

10. When is the last time you saw your sister? yesterday

11. What do you drink in the morning? nothing. i dont wake up in the morning

12. Where did you sleep last night? my couch because its fucking comfier than my bed

13. Do you think relationships are hard? most def. wouldn’t have it any other way though. 

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you? yeah

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

yeah, the fact we haven’t talked in months, and because i’m pretty sure she wants nothing to do with me lol

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy? rainy, free shower

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you? dont got a middle name so i guess yes?

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants? boxing shorts 

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now? ahahaha no.

20. Does anyone like you? trust me, if i knew i would do something about it

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S? its rude to say but i don’t remember but from what i do remember its a no

22. Is the last person you kissed gay? not gay specifically at least from what i’ve been told by said person

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand? 3 people specifically. not gonna name them

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo? multiple times, talked to tattoo artists, people who had multiple tattoos, people who are first timers so yeah i want one maybe 5

25. In the past week have you cried? yeah anime hurts the feels bro

26. What breed was the last dog you saw?does pictures on tumblr count? if yes, a shiba inu, if no, golden retriever

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower? out of the shower, i feel like im gonna slip and fall if i stay in there too long

28. Have you ever kissed a football player? yeah he doesn’t use lip balm often so it was kinda rough

29. Do you think you’re old? yeah

30. Do you like text messaging? most def. i like texting more than talking since i can think about my words and play it off as just “ yeah i was busy” also i find myself a better conversationalist on texts than in person

31. What type of day are you having? a shitty one but i showered so im feeling refreshed at least

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced? nope, i have thought about getting spider bites on my lower lip but i dont think i can pull it off

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather? cold weather, i hate bugs and indoor volleyball is nice

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?yeah

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling? a relationship. flings hurt afterwards and to me theres no feelings behind it so youre left feeling empty

36. Are you a simple or complicated person? i wanna say simple but everyone knows everyones complicated. if someones simple that just means theyre not letting off everything at the get go

37. What song are you listening to? lie to me george nozuka

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it? of course i do. does it mean i wont make the same mistake? nope. it just means i’ll take steps to preventing it from happening again. if it happens again then ill keep trying. all you can do when you fuck up is to just keep trying to prevent it from happening again. 39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you? i’d like to think so40. What made you start liking the person you like now?vibrant personality that draws you in. playful demeanor. likes geeky things like i do. has deep thoughts that make me want to ponder existence with them. likes physical intimacy. and the first thought when i saw her was that i wanted to protect her, care for her, and guide her in life if ever she needs help. 41. When did you last receive a text message? 8:43 am monday42. What is wrong with you right now? im not independent? i rely on friends and other stuff to grant me happiness when really the only source of happiness i can rely on if to draw it from myself. friends help but they can’t be the only source. i have trouble moving on from past issues, constantly weighed down by past decisions and mistakes when i should have passed it a long time ago.43. How well do you know the last female you texted? not very well however she knows me very well since i vent to her lol44. Does anyone disgust you? yeah the same 3 people i mentioned that i cannot stand.45. Would you date someone right now if they asked? most likely yeah46. Are you in a good mood right now? nope. neutral if anything47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?me mother before she left for a bus shuttle to fort mac48. What color shirt are you wearing? nude. no plans today, or guests so that means no pants, no shirt and occasionally if im feeling happy enough, no underwear either49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear? not recently. i have a feeling that i’ve given off the vibe to all my friends that they have to tip toe around me about a lot of topics else they’ll make me sad. i’d rather a splash of cold water in the face than some shitty lie50. Anyone you’re giving up on? myself mostly.51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for? i never hate the people i used to date. i hate the decisions i made that lead to breaking up. i tend to think things are never someone else’s fault but more of mine. even if by some weird chance it wasn’t i would twist it so it was my fault. its just easier for everyone that way if people have a scapegoat.

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t? yeah.53. Do you like rain? i love it. sometimes on rare occasions i can almost feel the shitty person inside me just kinda slide off my skin and drip off the tips of my fingers and i feel … complete? is the best way i can put it54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks? nope. party all you like, im just not too keen on drinking very often or partying very often. although when i do party ill party hard.55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them? who hasnt?56. Do you like to cuddle? love it. spooning, arm on shoulder, hugging from behind, them sitting on your lap, them holding you from behind. my skin feels electric when the person i love has their skin against mine.57. Are you shy? i’d like to say im not58. Do you get along with girls? i’d like to say i do59. Have you dated the person you texted last? not going to lie hahah i considered it at some point60. What do you carry with you at all times? phone, wallet , keys.61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you? yeah most likely. the economy sucks bro.62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months? yeah assuming i dont fuck up lol63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?nope. sadly.64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute? DAMN STRAIGHT.  shit would be like a good luck charm65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week? my niece tried to say duck and instead said fuck

66. How old are the last three people you kissed? probably going to get some questionable looks from this but 16, 24, 21

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself? pay for a pro, i am NOT an artistic person.   68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?    zebra. black and white. leopard print makes me think a white 40 something year old with plastic surgery, hair thats half a meter tall and nails that are longer than most men’s penises talking with a southern belle accent that tries to hit on pool boys69. Do you have any stickers on your car? none70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne? i hate country and im not a fan of lil wayne anymore so i guess lil wayne if i absolutely have to.71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?    android 72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?    couple days ago?73. Do you like diet soda?    hate it. feels fake to me74. What color are the walls in your room?    boring beige75. Are you 16 or older?    yes.76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?    heard of it, seen gifs, dont plan on watching it77. Do you have a job?    as of now yeah.  78. What are your initials?    SM79. Did you ever have braces?  nope.  i had retainers but i kept breaking them so my parents were like okay thats enough, its too expensive to replace them lol80. Are you from the south?  im about as north as you can get without living in igloos

81. What does your last status on facebook say?    “day barely started and 4 things putting me in a shitty mood. looks liek today is gonna be loooooooooong”82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?    i wish.83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?    mother. although im not on good terms with either of them. my mother just has more patience to deal with me84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?   i did pom squad which was a pretty shitty version of cheerleading i guess. 85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters? beauty and the beast i thoroughly enjoyed it =]    86. Do you smoke?  weed or cigarettes? either one ive stopped both. not worth it, plus i dislike smelling gross.87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?    i’ve worn heels before but not for a prolonged period of time but they felt nice so i’d say hells. flip flops keep making annoying sounds and it makes me grind my teeth thinking about it88. Is your phone touch screen?    yes89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?    straight. i’d love it to be a bit curly. i even permed my hair last year apparently it looked good says some friends of mine.90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?    i snuck out last night lol. the family gave up on stopping me.91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?    pool. rivers and lakes have the possibility of germs, leeches or other shit. its a hassle to have to take extra precautions92. Have you ever made out in a car?    yep.93. …Had sex in a car?    almost.94. Are you single or in a relationship?   single. 95. What were you doing last night at midnight?    playing overwatch with my friend reo.96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?    AW COME THE FUCK ON. the last relationship questions weren’t enough to jab a knife in my chest but this too? fuck. whatever. it was at capital ex or k- days whatever the fuck you wanna call it. i had fun. the fireworks wasn’t the only thing that sparked. fuck. instant bad mood.97. Do you like the camera on your phone? yeah its really good. i can take pictures of my friends and even see the condition of their pores and shit its pretty nice.   98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?    nope. i’d like to try it though99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?    not yet.100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?  yeah. i should really just delete my facebook.  101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?  nope.  102. Name your favorite Kesha song:    Die young103. Do you have any tan lines right now?    nope.104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts? sure why not. i’d probs wear assless chaps too if i had a nice ass